[ She feels like she really can't judge that. Partly because her grasp of his situation is tentative at best, and partly because she was serious about the Thots Codependency. But also because - it's the same as games like these. It's about survival, and protecting who you can.
If he says it needed to happen, she'll trust that judgment. ]
That sounds similar to the kinds of decisions people are forced to make here.
[ ... ]
Um... And - that's okay. I could tell that it's not like you wanted to do it.
Yeah. It's a very similar feeling to watch, too. It's part of the reason I've been a little more sympathetic, I guess.
[but he shakes his head.] We should have tried so much harder to save you back then. You didn't do anything wrong and this time when people started accusing you for murdering Yu it was even worse somehow.
...but things happen for a reason. I didn't used to believe it until I started seeing how different timelines were formed. And I guess it helps knowing people will still be around at the end of things.
That's just human. People here feel that way about the others but...it's how the game had to go. We just got really lucky. [unfortunately he won't be the one to tell her otherwise because he gets it.]
...it's the hardest thing I've had to do, even though I've been doing it with multiple people for the last two years. But at least things feel closer to finishing on a high note than the last time. So we just have to keep going. No regrets.
I know. But it's just - everyone keeps saying I'm so nice or so sweet. And it's my job to take care of everyone. I know that it's human, and I'm only human, but I still go back and forth on it. Whether or not I'm okay with knowing that I play favorites.
[ When everyone keeps telling you you're great, it makes you feel that much worse about the actions you take that... Aren't great. But despite everything, she nods. ]
Well you are a sweet person. That part's not wrong. But you can still be nice and sweet while knowing what's most important to you. It isn't your job to be responsible for everyone else. The only people you should take care of are yourselves and the people you want to take care of.
...you can have empathy for everyone around you, but you don't have to be perfect. I know it probably doesn't help but that's just how I see it.
[ It's hard to argue with that, but also very hard to just have another conversation that boils down to justifying herself to herself. So she tries to brush past it. ]
At the very least, I'm glad that I was of more use to people this time around.
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If he says it needed to happen, she'll trust that judgment. ]
That sounds similar to the kinds of decisions people are forced to make here.
[ ... ]
Um... And - that's okay. I could tell that it's not like you wanted to do it.
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[but he shakes his head.] We should have tried so much harder to save you back then. You didn't do anything wrong and this time when people started accusing you for murdering Yu it was even worse somehow.
...but things happen for a reason. I didn't used to believe it until I started seeing how different timelines were formed. And I guess it helps knowing people will still be around at the end of things.
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[ Like. Kara is dead to her now, which is pretty damn unfair of her. ]
... But most people that I love stayed safe through this. And... By the time someone didn't - we already had hope for ending this game right.
[ Hrm. ]
... It's still hard, though.
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...it's the hardest thing I've had to do, even though I've been doing it with multiple people for the last two years. But at least things feel closer to finishing on a high note than the last time. So we just have to keep going. No regrets.
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[ When everyone keeps telling you you're great, it makes you feel that much worse about the actions you take that... Aren't great. But despite everything, she nods. ]
But... No regrets.
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...you can have empathy for everyone around you, but you don't have to be perfect. I know it probably doesn't help but that's just how I see it.
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[ It's hard to argue with that, but also very hard to just have another conversation that boils down to justifying herself to herself. So she tries to brush past it. ]
At the very least, I'm glad that I was of more use to people this time around.
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... Even if the results were kind of a hassle.
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This place was miserable.
... But there were good things about it.
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I feel really lucky to have met everyone, even if under these circumstances. It's hard to say that it's worth it... But it is.
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[at least they're on the same page.]