I know. But it's just - everyone keeps saying I'm so nice or so sweet. And it's my job to take care of everyone. I know that it's human, and I'm only human, but I still go back and forth on it. Whether or not I'm okay with knowing that I play favorites.
[ When everyone keeps telling you you're great, it makes you feel that much worse about the actions you take that... Aren't great. But despite everything, she nods. ]
Well you are a sweet person. That part's not wrong. But you can still be nice and sweet while knowing what's most important to you. It isn't your job to be responsible for everyone else. The only people you should take care of are yourselves and the people you want to take care of.
...you can have empathy for everyone around you, but you don't have to be perfect. I know it probably doesn't help but that's just how I see it.
[ It's hard to argue with that, but also very hard to just have another conversation that boils down to justifying herself to herself. So she tries to brush past it. ]
At the very least, I'm glad that I was of more use to people this time around.
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[ When everyone keeps telling you you're great, it makes you feel that much worse about the actions you take that... Aren't great. But despite everything, she nods. ]
But... No regrets.
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...you can have empathy for everyone around you, but you don't have to be perfect. I know it probably doesn't help but that's just how I see it.
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[ It's hard to argue with that, but also very hard to just have another conversation that boils down to justifying herself to herself. So she tries to brush past it. ]
At the very least, I'm glad that I was of more use to people this time around.
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... Even if the results were kind of a hassle.
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This place was miserable.
... But there were good things about it.
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I feel really lucky to have met everyone, even if under these circumstances. It's hard to say that it's worth it... But it is.
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[at least they're on the same page.]