I know, I'm as shocked as you are. I was ready to get punched, or slapped, or yelled at... But we had a pretty good conversation. I have no right to feel this happy. I know that. But it felt great to be myself, even if it was for a couple of minutes.
I want to talk to the others, too. I don't know if that's a good idea. I said some things I shouldn't have. Claiming that I felt angry and scared are just excuses. I wouldn't blame them if they decide they want nothing to do with me. It wouldn't be the first time I win a prize for being a bad friend.
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I did it.
It went okay.
I know, I'm as shocked as you are. I was ready to get punched, or slapped, or yelled at... But we had a pretty good conversation. I have no right to feel this happy. I know that. But it felt great to be myself, even if it was for a couple of minutes.
I want to talk to the others, too. I don't know if that's a good idea. I said some things I shouldn't have. Claiming that I felt angry and scared are just excuses. I wouldn't blame them if they decide they want nothing to do with me. It wouldn't be the first time I win a prize for being a bad friend.