Oh - I hate that. [HE HATES TIME SHENANIGANS. This time he drinks like half of his glass in one go, god. If only he could get drunk.]
Well... I bet you miss the quiet a little now, with all of us constantly knocking at your door, barging into your office, breaking into your cabin, reading your diary, so on.
[No kill him first he's less important than a director.]
Ah... [He sets his glass down so he can hold Cinnabun with both hands, gently holding her up and brushing her fuzzy little bun mane against Junpei's nose.] You don't seem to do well anyway, being alone.
[thanks wei wuxian. this is why he's the emotional support gremlin. and also because, like, junpei could lie and brush that off but somehow wwx has become a person who tends to be on the receiving end of junpei's squishy human emotions. so...he huffs a little at the noseboop from his bun's fur.]
Was it that obvious? I'm not so bad at being independent.
But he unfortunately loves Junpei and Junpei's squishy human emotions alike, for all the good and bad there is in them. He settles Cinnabun into the crook of his arms and hums, considering.]
Mm, you're not! You've made it a long way being independent, and there's certainly merit to it. But the isolation in independence is unpleasant, sometimes. It's hard to be by yourself.
[He says it simply, but hilariously, this is also probably the most blunt he's ever been about being alone, too.]
You're not wrong. [but his gaze seems to land on cinnabun, sort of unfocused. he's not sure if he wants to continue, but at the same time...]
Then again, sometimes I think it's just as hard to be with other people after being alone for so long, so what do I know? [namely in the sense that you don't know what to trust with people after all this time.] Most of the time I like that people are here even with these shitty circumstances.
Maybe I don't really know how to feel about anything anymore, actually.
[Sometimes you just have to have a heart-to-heart with a gremlin. He scritches the ruff of Cinnabun's fluffy neck, humming again in a softer, more lilting way.]
Pretty normal after everything you've been through, I'd say. Being alone is hard! Being around people is hard, too. Being alive in general is terrible sometimes, haha. [HAHA. Return him to the dirt.]
But I'm glad you don't have to be alone anymore, here. [...] Relatively speaking. You can be surrounded by people and still feel isolated, after all, especially in a position like yours.
Being alive is actually awful sometimes, yeah. Especially when you remember dying enough. [he'll just come out and say it because haha, sometimes. shit sucks! and dick gets weird if he says things like that soooo...he doesn't, often.]
...it's similar, isn't it? [he doesn't clarify that he means it's similar for him and wei wuxian, but figures he'll leave it openended so he can answer or not. also haha this is even before the rules get out so this is a funny conversation suddenly.] I guess it's just because there're people who try to stick around anyway.
Also hate that they can just make TERRIBLE REFERENCES TO DYING. Just volley that shit back and forward. He grins; a lopsided thing, with a little sharpness to the humor's edge.]
Mm, the more you have under your belt, the more awful it can be? [A little huff of a laugh.
But, since Junpei's decided to put it down, he'll pick it up.] Hah - seems like it. [Even if it's a small acknowledgment... Anyway he doesn't need a rulebook to know being an NPC sucks okay HE HEARD CHUUYA COMPLAIN ENOUGH. There is some terrible gremlin affection in his little goblin expression at that, too.]
Unfortunately, a lot of us stick like burrs! Can't shake us off even if you try.
[someday junpei will just see if wwx wants to call the bun by her real name but for now, cinnabun is cinnabun. but he sees that look and it looks about the way he feels which is enough to make him laugh under his breath.]
Weird to think about, isn't it? [but there's a slightly sympathetic grin at that. they don't have to linger on it, but even the acknowledgement seems to help.] I've been trying for a while and it hasn't seemed to work. I might just have to give up after all.
[meanwhile he's just here like yeah junpei would name a rabbit cinnabun i bet he's jealous he didn't come up with it first.
Terrible affectionate gremlin hours, though. THEIR SYMPATHY! THEIR FONDNESS! They're vibing on the same plane right now and it's the worst.]
Only as weird as so many other things! [He says it on a light laugh, and then grins a goblin grin.] Best to save your energy for less impossible feats, anyway. We're all stubborn people here, so you can't just win by trying to out-stubborn the rest of us.
[the worst is that yes he would. they can continue to vibe and be drift compatible, it's terrible, and cinnabun just wiggles her cute lil nose and thinks not of the morality rate of humans.]
You'd be surprised the sort of things I can accomplish out of sheer spite. [dryly, but it's also hard not to hide his own bit of amusement.] ...hopefully everyone uses that stubbornness to keep on track and help us find a way out of here. We could use all the luck we can get.
[Morality rate..... Fair mood still, honestly. He lifts Cinnabun up to his cheek so he can give her ADORABLE SELF a little cuddle.]
Hah! I don't know that I'd be surprised... [He says it in a mostly teasing way, but also, he intimately knows The Power Of Spite. He gets it. He'd seen a little glimpse on the boat, when they had None Hope and just wanted to yell FUCK YOU DEMONS until they found the energy to continue fighting. It happens.
His mouth twitches a little, then, like he's not sure whether to continue smiling or not.]
Ah, you know it's bad if you of all people are talking about luck. [...] Are we - heading in even remotely the right direction, do you know?
[it happens! but there's an amused sort of grin because yeah, alright, wei wuxian would be one of the people who'd know best.]
Facts and probability wasn't enough to save everyone last time. So maybe luck really is something we should consider, you know? [but there's a thoughtful hum.] ...it's hard to say. I wish I knew but...the fact that there is apparently a way to save everyone, even if we don't know what it is yet, says a lot more than what we originally knew about the game.
It's what we need until we find something else. But we have so many overly optimistic teenagers still running around I'm sure we'll hear something new sooner or later.
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Well... I bet you miss the quiet a little now, with all of us constantly knocking at your door, barging into your office, breaking into your cabin, reading your diary, so on.
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...you'd think so but the quiet was actually really...not great. I'd rather deal with everyone else even if some of the others are a pain in the ass.
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Ah... [He sets his glass down so he can hold Cinnabun with both hands, gently holding her up and brushing her fuzzy little bun mane against Junpei's nose.] You don't seem to do well anyway, being alone.
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Was it that obvious? I'm not so bad at being independent.
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But he unfortunately loves Junpei and Junpei's squishy human emotions alike, for all the good and bad there is in them. He settles Cinnabun into the crook of his arms and hums, considering.]
Mm, you're not! You've made it a long way being independent, and there's certainly merit to it. But the isolation in independence is unpleasant, sometimes. It's hard to be by yourself.
[He says it simply, but hilariously, this is also probably the most blunt he's ever been about being alone, too.]
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Then again, sometimes I think it's just as hard to be with other people after being alone for so long, so what do I know? [namely in the sense that you don't know what to trust with people after all this time.] Most of the time I like that people are here even with these shitty circumstances.
Maybe I don't really know how to feel about anything anymore, actually.
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Pretty normal after everything you've been through, I'd say. Being alone is hard! Being around people is hard, too. Being alive in general is terrible sometimes, haha. [HAHA. Return him to the dirt.]
But I'm glad you don't have to be alone anymore, here. [...] Relatively speaking. You can be surrounded by people and still feel isolated, after all, especially in a position like yours.
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Being alive is actually awful sometimes, yeah. Especially when you remember dying enough. [he'll just come out and say it because haha, sometimes. shit sucks! and dick gets weird if he says things like that soooo...he doesn't, often.]
...it's similar, isn't it? [he doesn't clarify that he means it's similar for him and wei wuxian, but figures he'll leave it openended so he can answer or not. also haha this is even before the rules get out so this is a funny conversation suddenly.] I guess it's just because there're people who try to stick around anyway.
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Also hate that they can just make TERRIBLE REFERENCES TO DYING. Just volley that shit back and forward. He grins; a lopsided thing, with a little sharpness to the humor's edge.]
Mm, the more you have under your belt, the more awful it can be? [A little huff of a laugh.
But, since Junpei's decided to put it down, he'll pick it up.] Hah - seems like it. [Even if it's a small acknowledgment... Anyway he doesn't need a rulebook to know being an NPC sucks okay HE HEARD CHUUYA COMPLAIN ENOUGH. There is some terrible gremlin affection in his little goblin expression at that, too.]
Unfortunately, a lot of us stick like burrs! Can't shake us off even if you try.
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Weird to think about, isn't it? [but there's a slightly sympathetic grin at that. they don't have to linger on it, but even the acknowledgement seems to help.] I've been trying for a while and it hasn't seemed to work. I might just have to give up after all.
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Terrible affectionate gremlin hours, though. THEIR SYMPATHY! THEIR FONDNESS! They're vibing on the same plane right now and it's the worst.]
Only as weird as so many other things! [He says it on a light laugh, and then grins a goblin grin.] Best to save your energy for less impossible feats, anyway. We're all stubborn people here, so you can't just win by trying to out-stubborn the rest of us.
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You'd be surprised the sort of things I can accomplish out of sheer spite. [dryly, but it's also hard not to hide his own bit of amusement.] ...hopefully everyone uses that stubbornness to keep on track and help us find a way out of here. We could use all the luck we can get.
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Hah! I don't know that I'd be surprised... [He says it in a mostly teasing way, but also, he intimately knows The Power Of Spite. He gets it. He'd seen a little glimpse on the boat, when they had None Hope and just wanted to yell FUCK YOU DEMONS until they found the energy to continue fighting. It happens.
His mouth twitches a little, then, like he's not sure whether to continue smiling or not.]
Ah, you know it's bad if you of all people are talking about luck. [...] Are we - heading in even remotely the right direction, do you know?
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Facts and probability wasn't enough to save everyone last time. So maybe luck really is something we should consider, you know? [but there's a thoughtful hum.] ...it's hard to say. I wish I knew but...the fact that there is apparently a way to save everyone, even if we don't know what it is yet, says a lot more than what we originally knew about the game.
So I'll say we are.
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Do you think? [Said with a little quirking grin. It's not like they have a lot of luck to spare either, but hey! Maybe it is enough, somehow.
For the rest of that... Mm. It's hard to stay optimistic, after everything they've been through. But.]
...That's good enough for now, then.
[It's enough to keep him going.]
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[He kind of admires them?? It's wild to be so determined after months and months of going through this kind of thing.]
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