I was, though. [HE WAS WRONG TO SAY IT!! He'll fight the shit outta Wen Ning. Just grab this hand he'd touched and fling him through the ceiling.
He glances back toward the blood pool and the bodies within it after that, considering. A surprising few of which are actually his fault. Incredible.]
...I was too angry to think clearly, then. But if a task like this exists at all, I wouldn't want it to fall on anyone else's shoulders, you know? [He's still not entirely convinced that there aren't others like him and Beau on other teams, and he'd rather leave Beau off, but. It's better than nothing.] As long as I'm alive, it's not a problem for others.
[Not that having a more or less guaranteed kill a week apparently STOPS PEOPLE but, you know. That's a problem for tomorrow Wei Wuxian to think about.]
[-well, he knows wei wuxian. knows how he can be. so it's not very surprising that he'd put himself on the line like that if he had the choice, too, just to spare others this sort of work. to make sure they don't have to suffer over it.
but he doesn't want this to hurt wei wuxian, either. he looks slightly conflicted.]
I... understand. I feel the same way about the executions-- if it could just be me every time, then...
Mm. I would have volunteered, if given the opportunity.
[He knows it probably won't be enough to really make Wen Ning stop feeling guilty - and that's his fault, and he'll just have to bear the responsibility for it.
THAT SURE IS HIM TOO THOUGH wow he hates it. He read Wen Ning's diary! He knows how he feels about that execution!!]
Hah, I'm guessing there's no way you can pull the strings for that, hm? Too bad - I wouldn't mind taking that position, either. I'd have been able to kill Nie Huaisang quickly, that way.
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[he definitely won't be letting this one go! haha. it's... fine.
but his eyes fix on wei wuxian's hand when it touches his own, before he glances back up.]
...I have?
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He glances back toward the blood pool and the bodies within it after that, considering. A surprising few of which are actually his fault. Incredible.]
...I was too angry to think clearly, then. But if a task like this exists at all, I wouldn't want it to fall on anyone else's shoulders, you know? [He's still not entirely convinced that there aren't others like him and Beau on other teams, and he'd rather leave Beau off, but. It's better than nothing.] As long as I'm alive, it's not a problem for others.
[Not that having a more or less guaranteed kill a week apparently STOPS PEOPLE but, you know. That's a problem for tomorrow Wei Wuxian to think about.]
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[-well, he knows wei wuxian. knows how he can be. so it's not very surprising that he'd put himself on the line like that if he had the choice, too, just to spare others this sort of work. to make sure they don't have to suffer over it.
but he doesn't want this to hurt wei wuxian, either. he looks slightly conflicted.]
I... understand. I feel the same way about the executions-- if it could just be me every time, then...
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[He knows it probably won't be enough to really make Wen Ning stop feeling guilty - and that's his fault, and he'll just have to bear the responsibility for it.
THAT SURE IS HIM TOO THOUGH wow he hates it. He read Wen Ning's diary! He knows how he feels about that execution!!]
Hah, I'm guessing there's no way you can pull the strings for that, hm? Too bad - I wouldn't mind taking that position, either. I'd have been able to kill Nie Huaisang quickly, that way.