I'm thinking about him more lately, even though I shouldn't. Falling into old habits is bad for me. I know it wasn't my job to save him. But I still
It's because of the competition. That's obvious. I'm tired of watching people die. It feels like I've been doing nothing BUT watch people die lately. There's nothing I can do as a "proctor," though. If I try to interfere, someone else will get hurt in my place. At least, back then, I could do something even if it wasn't always the right thing. It feels selfish and self-centered to say this is worse.
It's whatever. If no one dies, then all of us die. Even worse, all 311 of us will lose everything we worked for.
I have to keep working. There has to be a better way.
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Would he still think I have a soul?
I'm thinking about him more lately, even though I shouldn't. Falling into old habits is bad for me. I know it wasn't my job to save him.
But I stillIt's because of the competition. That's obvious. I'm tired of watching people die. It feels like I've been doing nothing BUT watch people die lately. There's nothing I can do as a "proctor," though. If I try to interfere, someone else will get hurt in my place. At least, back then, I could do something even if it wasn't always the right thing. It feels selfish and self-centered to say this is worse.
It's whatever. If no one dies, then all of us die. Even worse, all 311 of us will lose everything we worked for.
I have to keep working. There has to be a better way.